These feelings and thoughts have concreted in my mind something I have been thinking for a while. I am over it. Over this. I am tired of seeing the same things in the news over and over again. I am tired of the games, political and otherwise. My party has lost their ever loving minds and I can no longer get up the strength to defend them. For goodness sakes I am thinking the next Presidential candidate I vote for may be a dem! WHO AM I???? I am still me. I still think abortion is wrong, and I still think it is ok to say God. I am just starting to see that it is not so black and white. So because of that this is my last entry. Some of you are breathing a sigh of relief, and thats ok. I think I am too.

Thank you to RightSideRadio for the opportunity. Thank you so much to Chris, and good luck with your political aspirations. I am always here for you. I have gained so much from this blog and the one before. I have gained knowledge of whats important and I have gained friends. My friends from this "world" have meant so much to me. We have gone through many things and many fights. Thank you for being a part of this. I have really slacked off as of late and most of you will never read this but thank you. As I did not win an Oscar I guess I should end my dramatics now. So long!
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Perhaps that is why I haven't had the motivation to write for a while. I feel like D.C is in a game of musical chairs. The music starts everyone runs like a chicken with its head cut off, then the music stops and someone is out on their arss.

So I stand tried and true to my beliefs on morals and values, and behind the conservative party fundamentally, for this I cannot budge. But I feel as though I have been broke by the world and need to rebuild. It is all just a joke no clear cut answer no clear cut truth. If there was who would we get it from, some newspaper who has its own agenda? Broken

My thoughts and prayers are with those who lost friends and families, my thoughts and prayers are also with those who are now reliving events from the past.

Many of our schools are suffering. They are suffering because although many of them have computers for every child, many years have gone with not enough text books. Not enough teachers. Not enough resources. I was lucky because I had teachers and text books.

I however lived as a deprived adult. Sure I have a home, a car, food on the table etc., a job, an education. To you those may seem like all I need, you are an idiot. I am almost 31 years old and nearly hit bottom because I was missing one thing in my life. You ask why, what is keeping me from this one thing? Money. Sure it doesn't seem like a lot of money but I should be on a budget and it is a little more than budgeted for non necessary items.

Those two words are where I had it all wrong. NON NECESSARY. I know now, almost too late, that it is a necessity. One of utmost importance. The IPOD. Don't have one? Go get one!

Now before I continue, let me say this little gadget is like the coolest thing EVER.. I can now catch my favorite podcast, Galacticast anytime. Not to mention downloading audio books, tv shows, movies, music etc..
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Don't have one? Go get one! Can't afford one for your bratty child? Have no fear, the Democrats are here! Michigan Democrats have proposed a bill to give every Michigan child an IPOD.. This will obviously come before making sure every Michigan child has food on his plate, and before every nappy headed blond white trash woman gets Quest cards to pay for a new manicure. This is what is necessary to keep children out of trouble, while their nappy headed blond white trash mothers are busy blowing some guy for more crack. This will save our children. Its brilliant really. Just think about what your generation missed out on. I think my generation would have produced less criminals, drop outs, druggies etc. if we had only been provided with Game Boys for instance.

Republicans listen up, stand behind the Democrats on this one. We as a society need it. Let us give so that there is no need to work and earn, no need to steal. AMEN

We sadly have British soldiers being held captive. Are we going to do anything about it? No, we will just hear about it in the news a few times. Why won't we do anything? Because someone somewhere is too scared to do it. They will be rescued yes, I believe that. Just not soon enough. Because we choose not to take a stand right away in a few months this story will become repetitive as well.

Here is a new headline for us,"A suspect being held in Guantanamo claims torture" Even they can't come up with new stories.

When are we going to just fix these things? Take actions and stop talking about it.. Maybe then we wouldn't have to question whether someone should be subpoenaed or not.

Ok moving on to more recent events. Leb mentioned someone by the name of Scooter Libby. Never heard of the guy but I assume by his name he was from the Lil Rascals... Really though I don't know what to say about that situation. I can't even tell you if I think he will get a pardon. I think the whole situation was sad and think a Left wing conspiracy should be addressed.

I have seen red over the hospital conditions at Walter Reed. As a former Army brat I was in military hospitals quite a bit. They were never the funnest or nicest but really when are hospitals? The conditions we have seen at Walter Reed however are beyond horrifying. I hope all those in an uproar over how those at Abu Ghraib were treated are a trillion times over outraged over this. What a disgrace for our Country.

The last topic leads me to something I saw on tv last night. I am usually not a fan of 60 minutes, but I flipped over just in time to see Andy Rooney speak. The more he said the more I cringed. It was awful!! I just can't help but feel sorry for the old guy. In a nut shell he called our troops losers. Ouch. He said we have lowered our standards for recruiting purposes and that it is an embarrassment. Oh Andy.... I just wonder will he take as much heat as Ann Coulter has taken over her fag comment, or take as little heat as Bill Maher's comments on how sad he was Dick Cheney wasn't killed. Interesting what makes big news and what makes not quite as much. Examples Libby's conviction vs. Anna Nicole, Coulter vs. Maher etc.. Oh and incase you haven't heard Angelina just pulled further ahead in the Hollywood adoption race. Thanks Media

I guess my head is spinning as I realize more and more that the media is what rules the world. Therefore I have come to the conclusion that the Jews really are behind 9/11.

Was slavery right? Absolutely not. I will not apologize for something that I had no part of.

Do I think we as America should forget slavery ever existed? Absolutely not. It is a part of our history. A part of our history we have learned from and grown from.

I find it appalling that we feel we need to apologize for something that happened well over a 100 years ago. What more do Americans need to do to pay for slavery? And while we are talking about Americans.. Are African Americans also apologetic that slavery happened as Americans, or is it just the mean white people that should be sorry? Oh and when is Africa going to apologize for giving their citizens up for slavery?

The jokes were all over the place yesterday over the death of Anna Nicole Smith. I heard a dj ask if Elton John would once again revamp his song Candle in the Wind over this passing. Worse I heard someone during the prep for the news conferance outside the hospital say "Anna Nicole, Anna Nicole, making a living off of Anna Nicole". I don't know who that guy was, but if his statement was one ounce true, perhaps his little dittie will be his closing song as well.

Now don't get me wrong Anna was not an idol of mine. She was a mess, no doubt. She was also a tragedy. She came from nothing to being famous or infamous.. not sure which one. She was a top model. For many of us that is not a goal in our lives but for others a dream come true. For me Anna was someone I cheered for. I really hoped the best. She had so much potential and then it was gone, then you would see a ray of light, then a thunderstorm, a ray of light, then a hurricane.

Her life and death were a tragedy but by no means a joke.

Who is responsible for her death? The DJs have been fired and will face involuntary manslaughter charges. Obviously they should be held responsible but, I hate to say but how did this girl do this. When you listen to the audio, found at sacbee, they all laugh about the risk of death. Im sorry but she knew the risk we can't blame the radio 100%. Perhaps she shouldn't have taken the consolation prize, which she obviously couldn't use. Lets see Timberlake or Nintendo. Guess she learned her lesson to late.

Monster as most of you know is probably the #1 job search engine available. It is really a great site. I have sent my resume to many of their postings, which is where my issue comes. 99% of the time I get the stupid question of race and sex. I would like to answer it with no I walk and yes, they don't offer those. As I am clicking white female I realize I haven't a chance in H E double hockey sticks, to get these jobs. Ok well maybe half a chance, I am a female after all. That supposed disadvantage is a supposed advantage in work world.

It used to be you didn't have to answer these questions. The employer had to work a little harder for the info. Step 1. Go through applications and based on which sex you want go by name Step 2. Take out any foreign names, you want American Step 3. Because names such as Jones, Smith, and Washington can be deceiving you must interview to find out race Step 4. Check out the tits, if you are going for a female, check out studliness if going male Step 5. Hire who you want because that is your job. When are we through with Affirmative Action? I really would like to know.